loner's heaven

Just read ken’s blog. Notice something that’s very serious going on. He hasn’t been quite alright since he started the blog. Think he’s unable to handle his personal problems. Girls, school, nursing, SJ, everything.

Well, I must say things hasn’t been going on well for me too. Everytime when it’s a festive occasion, I would always look into the past. The past when I spent it with Xian. The past, that has been haunting me for so long, so long. Its only been a year and a half since we broke up, but it seemed like such a long time, so long. I always told myself that I cannot always live in the past. But I can’t, I’m not strong enough. Now the house is so empty. Only the fan, the computer and me. I always hated this. I remembered once, when I went to Yew Tee. I went back to the place where xian and me was together at a void deck during one of the mooncake festival, where I brought sparklers and candles. Though we didn’t spend a long night there, we enjoyed ourselves. But rather, I enjoyed her company. I’ve never thought life would be so different without her. Maybe one day if I die, I wonder if she would be there to see me for the last time. I’ve regretted what I have done.

Xian, I really miss you.

posted by yang @ 11:17 PM