loner's heaven

Today’s Sunday, 24th july, 2005.. The song playing now.. is “Duan Dian” by Hins.. Zhang Jing Xuan.. It’s probably the only song that I am really able to feel with it.. it was the first song, that made me cry.. on my 17th birthday, 23/11/2004. what a year.. why am I like that. I must always lose something before I realize it’s importance to me. That is why, some of my friends say I am a flirt, that I “dun miss the water until it’s gone”. I never knew that I would cry, you know. Things haven’t been going well for me for the past week. Today, being the last day of this week. Will mark the end of my torture, I hope. Miss Fenton, my “consumer behaviour” lecturer is going off already, so sad.. I think she’s facing some kind of problem with her daughter ba.. after all she’s only four years old. Guess it’s like what people always say.. “good education” can only start from young. Only regretting ten years later will not help in anything… dunno what’s the problem with me.. I think I haven’t really got over my ex ba.. I’m still thinking of her leh.. why is it like that? I thought everything was over when we broke up? Didn’t know the repercussion of the break-up would last for so long. Why is this thing happening to me? Why? Went back for st. john’s yesterday, saw very little sec ones present for the event held yesterday, quite disappointed. but those who came were really enthusiastic, they enjoyed themselves. I joined them for the first game, but in the end I cannot walk, because I sprained my ankle on Wednesday. The wound was about to heal, then I injured it again. Hai.. well, but after the event for st. john, which is the “urban” hiking, we went to jing ying’s house for BBQ.. same thing again, I was barbequing away while the rest just ate whatever was cooked.. haha, but quite happy la, some of them still remembered my name.. I thought they won’t remember my name.. because I haven’t really been interacting with them, u see. Hehe. .havne’t msg-ed jia min for some time le.. but dunno whether she’ll reply anot.. afterall it’s Sunday, dunno she’ll go out and “cheong” anot.. hee. I cannot sia.. haven’t reach 18 yet.. anyway.. i can predict that I am not those people who will go “cheong-ing”, even though when I am 18 or older.. haha.. today wanna go and buy clothes one, saw the shop on a magazine, then when I went there today, it was closed.. hai.. kinda disappointed, but I need to buy surfer shorts! Need it for my chalet coming on this Wednesday, mean while, training up my body, hope I won’t look too ugly on the beach.. hehe..

And.. I apologise for all the foul language I used for the last blog entry.. hehe..

posted by yang @ 4:26 AM