loner's heaven

Can love between an older woman and younger man survive? I’ve been telling others that I do not like girls who are older than me.. but what’s getting into me? I’ve been thinking about this “ayumi-look-alike” which I mentioned earlier.. I dunno what’s wrong with me leh.. why.. is it really like what the others say, that “when you like a person, everything else does not matter anymore…” ? how come I can’t get her out of my head? And I saw Jolin at West Mall today… for those who does not know who she is, she is my ex-girlfriend, well, though she still looks like an ah lian, there is something about her that has changed.. even though we did not talk much, I know she still has feelings for me… but it is the problem with me… I can’t devote myself into another relationship I dunno what’s wrong, but I think even when I have a girlfriend, it will most likely be a flirt or something. I hope to get a girlfriend before I get into NS, becoz I think it’s rather pathetic to book out from a camp and have nobody wearing a skirt, smiling at you and waiting for you…? My god.. is getting attached really important? I dunno how leh.. but see see first la.. tonight call Jolin ba.. dunno if I have the time to do so.. and the problem is I dunno if I’ve got the guts to do so.. Jolin just broke up with her “boyfriend” last week.. I’ve told her not to get herself attached anymore.. all the guys will just flirt with her and then dump her.. my god.. if she keeps on going on like this, she’ll get herself pregnant one day.. being an extrovert, she is cheerful and out-going… but I’m really worried for her… anyway.. haven’t contacted Jia Min for sometime also.. wonder how she’s doin.. and went “kopi-ing” yesterday night, saw Wan Qi, Iris and Grace there, chatting with each other.. haha.. being the playful boy I am, I jumped next to Wan Qi and she was so surprised.. haha.. Grace had cut her hair short and she looked so different.. Iris also changed a lot.. look very different without her glasses.. heard Iris got retained.. wonder how’s she coping with her studies la.. and Sock Ruan really got married and gave birth to a daughter. Hope eveything’s fine with her. Kenneth also confirmed this when he said that he sold a pram to Sock Ruan personally.. just wish that her husband will treat her sincerely, and love her till the last days of their lives and her baby daughter will grow up in a happy family. I can’t imagine myself being a father though. Wonder how she’s coping with motherhood. Oh ya, just bought a cleanser today, so paiseh.. was searching for the Nivea facial cleanser and then a girl in short skirt was also searching for something in front of the cleanser that I was looking for… then she bend forward la.. of course being the shy guy, I walked away lor.. and waited outside of the glass panel of the store for her to get away from the shelf la… so eventually she went away, so I went into the store again. But I think heaven is playing a trick on me, that girl came out of nowhere again, and took some more stuffs from the same shelf. I almost went crazy.. she’s BEAUTIFUL!!! And the best of all, she’s tanned. You know, I’ve got a “thing” for girls with dark complexion.. haha… then she turned around and looked at me and walked off.. I think my expression was kind of perverted of something, cause she looked at me as though she saw a pervert. Anyway.. I still bought the cleanser at long last. Haha.. I must be getting crazy, thinking about girls all the time.. anyway.. miss my “ayumi-look-alike”.. I wonder when I’ll ever see her again after she graduate from SP.. anyway, I’ll just cherish whatever “time” I have “with her” ba.. =D

posted by yang @ 4:20 AM