loner's heaven

Life's supposedly to be going easy on an NSF when u're just two and a half months away from your big day, the ORD date.

But look at me, I'm still going thru' the torments of hell and going outfield, attending training sessions just like my days when I was back in SISPEC as a trainee. I dun understand why people are pushing us all the way till the very last moment before we bid our final farewell to our lovely buddies and wake up from the 2-year long nightmare.

To me, it didn't really mattered that much, because my service was only 1 year and 10 months long, a whole 2 months shorter than the rest of my many peers. (Thank god! Or rather, thanks to SP for 'awarding' me with a silver award for the NAPFA test! hehe.)

Well, I'm even more glad that the worst nightmare of an infantry man, the Brunei trip, was a successful one, with no one falling out and getting seriously injured or whatsoever. But I fell and hurt my back, though. Sometimes it's hurting my so much that i couldn't really sleep.

I'm going to report sick soon and then see if I can get an X-ray and hopefully down PES, so i dun need to chiong shua anymore. So sick and tired of this shit. Two and a half months down the road, I'll be done with my part in serving the nation and I'll continue with the rest of my life. Awaking from this long nightmare is not an easy task at all, I suppose. Cos I'm rather lost as to what to do if I dun get myself enrolled into the Uni.

I've decided that office work is not that exciting for me after all, cos I like going out to meet more people. I hate being restricted in one single place.

I guess it's the same for my relationship as well, I dun stay in a single relationship for long. I think going out to meet more people and broaden my horizons would help me make a better choice and hopefully let me think of who is the one who's really suitable.

At this moment in time, I just want to take things one at a time.

My short term goal for now? Finish my NS first.

posted by yang @ 2:18 PM