loner's heaven

"No, No, It's okay" I told Miss Ngah when she apologised for posing a question in which my reply caused an uproar in the class.

Miss Ngah conducted a mock interview, with the class seated in a U-formation, then there's a chair in front. everyone would take turn to go up and face the "panel" to answer questions, just like in an interview situation.

when asked, "Are you able to work overtime?" in a mock interview situation, I said ya. then i added, because I do have anyone to spend my free time with.

dunno why I said that, but.

ya, i said it.

then Miss Ngah asked again, so do u mean, if u have a girlfriend, you will not be able to do so?

I said no, because I'll be so used to the fact that I have been working overtime so much that I am used to it.

I saw nothing wrong with it what.

In fact, I thought it was perfectly fine.

but the whole class started to shoot question. like feeling very offended, what what what...

like as if i am void of feelings.

right.

I felt like shit.

I told my friend about it.

and his reply?

"Fuck you la. Ask them all eat shit. If no job, how to support your girlfriend or loved one? eat shit is it? shit is free. and talk is cheap." if love can be depended on, everyone would be eating shit now.

right.

somehow I felt great, cos he voiced out what I was thinking.

but I dun blame anyone. things just didn't turn out fine. I felt like.....

It felt like they were imposing their current situation on me.

they all have a boyfriend, who somehow loved them so much.

so I guess u can see the difference between an attached person and a single person.

but let me tell you this.

I dun really believe that love will last forever.

ya.
that's my viewpoint.

prove me wrong.

if YOU can do it.

so what.

even people who has been married for so many years can divorce, so what is your menial 2 year-old relationship.

it's nothing.

all it needs is just one wrong decision.

and then u'll understand the pain.

the pain....

of losing someone u love.

and YOU!

will NEVER understand my pain.






even as tears filled my eyes. I swear I won't cry.

I've realised how desensitised I've became after I broke up with her, so long ago.

I don't know if it is a disease.

But I feel terrible.

DIE.

posted by yang @ 2:23 AM