Haha.. joke of the century, man.. got my bag checked by a security officer yesterday. Guess what. I was at Dover MRT station, when I walked in, a seurity officer came over. She stopped me and asked to check me bag. I passed my bag to her la, naturally. Then she said I had to open it myself. Well, I opened it up. Then the funny thing is, she just took a look inside, then said I can go off already.. wat the hell! You dun even bother to check properly. Just peeped a bit like a thief like that, then say can go off already. What the hell is the security officer there for, man?! Funny as it may seems, it brings our attention to a very serious issue here. Are the security just there for show? Even if they are, I think we should get better actors here, man. One look at the security officers and we can know that:
Number one: bet they cannot out run the terrorists.
Number two: are they here to protect us, or we protect them?
Number three: did they really go through the necessary training to become a guard?
Number four: (for males) why do they ogle at young and pretty girls when they are supposed to stay vigilant?
I was on my way home from Jurong Point the other day, just as I reached Boon Lay MRT station, I saw a Guard, who was armed. His rifle was strapped to him and guess what he was doing. GOD! He was fagging his lungs out la.. haiyo. Where got people smoke on duty one?! What the hell.. I hate people who are not serious during work one. Especially when I worked at Friven. They also like that. I HATE people who smokes. This morning saw a super cute lady. Fairly pretty I must say. Even cute. But she had a cigarette in her hand. Oh god! Why always like that.. Bt. Gombak dun have much pretty girls, not even a pretty one I see smokes. Hai.. i cannot stand people who smokes. Guys or girls. All the same. I HATE! So stupid, was money, die faster. Anyway.. today dun need to go to school. Stayed at home, studied OM. Exams coming, I might not be able to blog for the next 2 weeks. Guess I will be very busy ba..
Wish me good luck! I will Jia You de..
whoa! just uploaded a pic i took with brandon.. haha.. went to eat seafood with him at Marina Bay on his birthday! Zhen Fa Live seafood. bet you've heard of it, man! advertise so much before. the lobster bigger than the little girl that one! remember? hehe.. long time never update my blog liao lo, actually not that long la.. *oops! i just said actually. anyway.. had a great week end though, went swimming, sun-tanning, got a hair cut, now i look neater. just took a train to school. i still cannot take the Singaporean way of taking the MRT. there was this woman who was trying to cut in front of me and she made that 'zik zik' sound.. she is the like the worst woman i've ever seen la! wat the hell! everybody was trying to get off the train and she sounds as if ti'm walking like an old man and the way she reacts is like saying, "get out of my way you bastard!" what the hell! i say, "get off my back, you bitch!" can't you see there's so many people in front of me too?! idiot! anyway, going back to Brandon's birthday celebration, we had a lot of seafood, man.. i ate 10 siew mai also.. haha.. break personal record. ate lots of pork, chicken and "hums" plus alot more la.. Brandon's sister only eat satay la! ?! what the hell? you pay $12 bucks just to eat Satay ah! haha.. quite funny though. but kenneth, me, wj and bra bra ate quite a bit though. the food was not like VERY nice, but it's still quite good la.. not too bad. after that we went to play games, play drum, play bowling. i was the only one with a strike leh! hehe.. so happy. then we went to play pool. lost to Brandon, then he lost to Kenneth. WJ and bra bra's sister didn't play. then WJ went to play drum again. so we waited till he finished the game and then we rushed to the bus-stop. i was so worried that we won't be able to board a bus, then even if we are able to do so, we won't be able to take the MRT back in time. however, we managed to do it, we even went to the temporary toilet outside the Marina Bay MRT station first before going in. haha.. funny. anyway, missed Shixian. how i wished she joined us. or at least, join me..
If I don’t write this down, I’ll probably go crazy soon.. I thought my feeling for her is already dead. But when I heard from Brandon that Shixian has broken up with her bf, the fire of hope rekindled in me. Even though she has broken up, I still cannot forget her. It has been more than a year since we’ve broken up. The past year has been a torment. I’ve hurt another girl, Jolin. I thought I loved her. But I was a selfish bastard. I had unintentionally used her as a substitute for xian. I didn’t mean to hurt her. But I still did. My feelings for xian has never died. I still love her. In the past I did, now I still do. In the years to come, I will still love her. How I wished I could hug her in my arms and say it softly to her, “bao bei, I love you..”
It’s not that I don’t want to hold your hand, but holding the hand of the one I love with my sweaty palm is not what I want to do. The thought of growing old with you, walking with you along the beach when we’re old, holding each other’s hand and walk into the sunset.
It’s not that I don’t want to say I love you, but I feel that love should be shown, expressed and not said.
It’s not that I don’t want to spend time with you, it is just that I can’t find the time. I have been striving to be the best, to get good results, to have a good career, for you. For our future, for our kids whom you promised to bear for me.
It might be too late for me to say this.
But saying it now beats saying nothing it at all.
‘xian, please forgive me’
4th of sep 2005. Just had a crazy week, man. You wouldn’t believe this. Thing aren’t going quite right. Well, in fact it’s quite alright. I’m confusing you, now ain’t I? things are going according to schedule. Just came back from my “trip”. Haha.. I left all the work with my MMR group mates, man.. what a irresponsible leader. Jia min is still no sending anything to me.. haha.. missing her huh, you bet! Hadn’t heard from her for quite long le.. oh, just got a idea for feature writing, I was still quite lost and worried just to find a topic as to what to write for the feature article. I think i’m still very unhappy with my progress, got to work faster and harder for the projects. Push myself and team mates harder. I know all of us are nearing breaking point, but I’ve got to hang in there. Just got to relax myself. Relaxed myself this week because of the “trip” to Malaysia. Haha. Got enough rest, man.. took care of myself quite well this week. Work progress are going on as usual. Guess I can still press my team mates harder for better results. Haha. I had my OM tutorial this week, took a survey. It says my task-orientation is “18 point”, people orientation? Only pathetically “1 point”. What the hell, only so little =D hehe.. but I’ll persevere, exams coming, I’ll work hard! Got 4 papers leh, but luckily it’s all spread out quite evenly. Not too bad. Work hard and I can go out and work during the holidays, work hard! =)
oh, the above pic is a class photo.. hehe.. can see me right, i'm the guy right in front in white.. hehe.. =D
