loner's heaven

I thought I would never be able to open my heart to another person again, if ever, it would have to be one similar to you. Behaves like you, eats like you, talks like you, smiles like you and even walks like you?!

But till she came into my life. Although I'm still not sure whether she thinks the same way i do for her, but so far, our times together have always been good.

There are times where I thought, when did I even started to have feelings for her? She is not even like you! Nothing in resemblance at all. I can't believe how it strikes me sometimes. Though she is kind at heart just like you, she certainly doesn't resemble you any single bit at all.

There are times when I still did compared her to you, but the conclusions is always this, "both of you are different." You were just a dream that I had when we were younger. True feelings were involved and we were so deeply in love with one another once, but now, we don't even talk online.

That's ok. Cos as long as you're happy, I wish you happiness. That being said, means I have also learnt to let go of my feelings for you. It also symbolises that I have also grown up from the person you used to know last time.

Let there be no grudges, no hate, also no love as I say this final goodbye to you.

At the same time, I'm filling my heart with feelings that I have for her. Though she is always busy with her school stuffs, she never fails to reply my sms-es, no matter how late it might be.

Sometimes out of the blue, I would SMS her, just to remind her that I'm thinking of her. I find myself racing to the phone when it rings or occasionally checking my phone to see if I have missed any of her messages.

Am I falling for her? I certainly do not know. How to know her feelings?

posted by yang @ 8:45 AM